It was a pretty long day of frustration and disappointment. I mean, when you tell someone that they are going to find out what they are having and then take that away from them, it's hard for those individuals to bounce back. We had built ourselves up to this day. We were okay not knowing, but by the day before we were ready and excited. After trying to reach the clinic for more than half of the day, I finally talked to my doctor's case manager who said, "Well, it's not life threatening" about not being able to get the ultrasound they promised (in a small way) to us. BLAH. No, my life nor my child's life was not threatened, but I surely wanted to threaten his for being so inconsiderate on the phone. I was upset for a lot of the day knowing that I had to wait even longer and not buy those cute outfits I saw the night before, and put "baby project" plans on hold when there was a good sale at JoAnn Fabrics going on! I got through the day though...
So what did I do when I couldn't go out and buy my babies first outfit?
I went and bought my nieces first outfit (from me anyway:)
The "My Auntie Rocks" outfit wasn't available in a smaller size :( Haha.
Retail therapy does work, ladies and gentlemen. It also gave me time to be grateful at the fact that I have someone with whom to be pregnant. My sisters always seemed to be pregnant at the same time. Many kids in our family are close in age. I had thought for a long time that, because my sisters are done having kids, that I would have to go this alone. I guess I always forgot to factor in my brother! His girlfriend and I are only a couple months apart, so we are going this together (over a distance of 500 miles of course haha). This pleases me. She even helped me feel better about not being able to see baby right away by telling me that I could easily get my ultrasound in awesome 3d/4d when I visit in a couple weeks. Yes, I am pleased :)
So, to fix my doctor problem here, I immediately wanted to go home to Anchorage to see my regular doctor at my regular hospital...but that would be a tad expensive flying every month for the next five months :| So, I called another (smaller) facility to see about transferring. I'm already excited about it because the lady on the phone was kind, helpful, and knowledgeable...not always the case at my current clinic. I am hopeful that they won't send me to the wrong end of the clinic, give me excruciatingly uncomfortable exams, or lead me astray.
To end on a happy note though, I can't say that May 8th, 2012 was all that bad even after dealing with such great frustration. I got to meet this little lady today, and she stole my heart and apparently helped me find my glow:
Tehya Ann :)
I finally started glowing this week, according to Tehya's momma, Pam :) I feel it too.
Tehya is my "goddaughter," however in Lingít culture, I'll be her tláakw', or "Little Mom". To me, that means much more to me :) I take my job as a tláakw' very seriously. Today, as I held her and loved her and smelled her, I realized (and was reminded quite a few times) that I was going to be in that position very soon. Háaw!
I need to think on that for a while ladies, and gentlemen :)
And it's past my bedtime.
Cheers!
No comments:
Post a Comment